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Tuesday, March 14, 2006

today my friend and i came to this really nice place with very very beautiful scenery
with trees. grass.water. wind. ( and no, im not referring to east coast park, thank you very much)
and we were like just walking around
and walking
and walking
and me having this feeling that somehow this place looks kind of familiar
when it suddenly clicked
that i have been here before
3 times, in fact

wow they seem so long ago
those times that i've been here
each time embodies a different meaning, with a different feeling

and now i'm here again
after all those years
standing in the same place
but now viewing it all in a different way

i've learnt to appreciate
how pretty everything is
how the water soothes me
and the wind comforts me

i am no longer like before, when i was a small kid
when i look at the water. the trees. the clouds. the buildings.
without really looking at them.
without realising that a few years later
i will be standing in the exact same place
looking. and looking.
staring and staring,
trying to take it all in
trying to bring it all back
back when i was still a young child,
when i was standing there, with my friends
playing, talking
without having to think about anything else except when we have to go home
so that my parents wouldnt have to worry

have i changed?
perhaps
perhaps i have grown up
become more mature,
since the very first time i stood in the exact same place

i try to hold all of it close to me
not letting go
i want all of it to be part of me
part of my beautiful memories
where i can look back in the future
and tell myself
that is a part of me, a part of my life
a part which will always stay inside me
never leaving

and now
with me walking down memory lane
all those childhood stories
the simple happiness
the sunshine
the rain
the wind
the snow
the flowers
the bees
the days i spent trying to catch butterflies
all of them rushing back
to me

where have they gone to?
yes i know they are inside me
and they always will be
but can i ever feel them again?
can i go back to those days
those carefree days
of my childhood

when we played catching with friends all day long
when i have big brothers and sisters to look after me and take care of me?

how i miss those times...

:smile:
8:07 PM