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Tuesday, March 14, 2006

today my friend and i came to this really nice place with very very beautiful scenery
with trees. grass.water. wind. ( and no, im not referring to east coast park, thank you very much)
and we were like just walking around
and walking
and walking
and me having this feeling that somehow this place looks kind of familiar
when it suddenly clicked
that i have been here before
3 times, in fact

wow they seem so long ago
those times that i've been here
each time embodies a different meaning, with a different feeling

and now i'm here again
after all those years
standing in the same place
but now viewing it all in a different way

i've learnt to appreciate
how pretty everything is
how the water soothes me
and the wind comforts me

i am no longer like before, when i was a small kid
when i look at the water. the trees. the clouds. the buildings.
without really looking at them.
without realising that a few years later
i will be standing in the exact same place
looking. and looking.
staring and staring,
trying to take it all in
trying to bring it all back
back when i was still a young child,
when i was standing there, with my friends
playing, talking
without having to think about anything else except when we have to go home
so that my parents wouldnt have to worry

have i changed?
perhaps
perhaps i have grown up
become more mature,
since the very first time i stood in the exact same place

i try to hold all of it close to me
not letting go
i want all of it to be part of me
part of my beautiful memories
where i can look back in the future
and tell myself
that is a part of me, a part of my life
a part which will always stay inside me
never leaving

and now
with me walking down memory lane
all those childhood stories
the simple happiness
the sunshine
the rain
the wind
the snow
the flowers
the bees
the days i spent trying to catch butterflies
all of them rushing back
to me

where have they gone to?
yes i know they are inside me
and they always will be
but can i ever feel them again?
can i go back to those days
those carefree days
of my childhood

when we played catching with friends all day long
when i have big brothers and sisters to look after me and take care of me?

how i miss those times...

:smile:
8:07 PM

Saturday, March 11, 2006

haha so i am finally blogging again...
yesyes...march hols is finally here, but the sad thing is, it isnt really much of a holiday, considering all the stuff we have to do...
ya anywae. we shouldnt think in that way, since after all it is the holidays and we should be happy and have fun and have lots and lots of sleep. and lots of rest. to recover from the muscle pains in the arms and legs and back pains. from PE. ahhh.

my back hurrrrrtts. awwww. must be getting old.
see im so tired i cant even think properly and blog decently. in proper sentences. logically.

so i shall stop here.
so much for blogging.
gees.

:smile:
9:28 PM

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Can't believe we're already sec 4s. Don't know why, but I still feel like we're inm sec 2. Maybe because we no longer count by secondary levels after we join the VIP? Haha.

Oh yes, and my impression of sec4s are those who are tall (well supposedly) /

Went to SHATEC today. It was quite fun I guess. Especially the dining etiquette part where they got people to act. So funny!!!! And Ms Toh was busy snapping photos (yes, unexpectedly, and at the most crucial times)...

Don't know what's going to happen for group stimulation exercise...hope it's going to be fun!!!

Rude awakening:
One more week before lessons begin...argh...

:smile:
7:47 PM

Friday, October 28, 2005

time really flies. or does it?

the holidays are here... just like how all the other holidays have come before.
and before you know it, it's gone. poof. and then it's school again. with all the familiar faces.

so much has happened this year. an eventful and interesting year, definitely.
and when you look back, you remember all the things... the happy ones as well as unhappy ones. all those days where you wish and wish will be over. and waiting for the year to end.

so now it has ended. but it's too fast.
one year goes by, another comes along
every year it's like this
and we are so used to it, we dont even think about it anymore.
or do we?

can i remember everything thats happened?
every moment. to be cherished.
orientation. all those helmsman weeks. japan trip. mount fuji. indieventure week. the lessons. the eoys. the teachers. the friends.

we've only been together for one year. but we've gone through so much. together.
all the people
those who dont say it but cares for you all the same
those who dont say it but appreciate you all the same
those who say one thing but actually they really mean well

and those who we love but we ourselves may not know it
or may not show it

we should. appreciate more.
who knows?
one day they may leave you
and that one day will definitely come
sometime

and then you regret
and then start to appreciate them and miss them
but it's really too late, isnt it?
or maybe not...

but of course
if we are given a choice
i would say
please dont leave us
please dont
because we need you
and if you leave
we'll miss you
a lot

really. this year. is very special.
i wont forget.

:smile:
11:24 PM

Saturday, October 15, 2005

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh
and i was waiting for the exams to end so that we can relax and enjoyyyyyyyyyy

and then theres imagineeringggggg
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

must rush the presentation
and i dont noe whats wrong with my computer ( or issit blackboard?)
blackboard refuses to load properly
boohoo

monday-------> school
return exam scripts *gulpz*
IM presentation

only looking forward to the despace project thingie....
hope it will be as fun as i hope it will be...

ahh must talk about happy things noww hahax
went ice skating
so funn
the place was like super crowded... cos got one girl had birthdae party there
haha then like skate halfway then they started to announce (over the loudspeaker) that it was someones birthdae then they started to blast the happy birthdae song
hahax they spray the "snow" (foam i suppose) onto the rink...
haha so funnnn
like christmas came early
hahax

then still got something else to be happy abt (shh!!)
hahax

going out with loolee tmr...
going to show her the cute cute looloo pencilcase i saw the other dayy?? mm maybe
ahh so happy......

so forget about IM and school for the time being
hahax
eh... not very possible lar hor?

ahhh thats all
ignore all the bad grammar (irony) in this post
mmm

:smile:
9:49 PM